Learning sans earnings:)

Am pitched in Mumbai right now. Been almost five days. Had recieved a call from one of the software giants to attend an interview for the position of a technical writer. Sprung up to the occasion and did head straightway from Bangalore to Mumbai in flat 22 hours. This includes the time taken for travel rituals as well. 2 months off paycheck had definitely done a wee bit of damage to my self identity.

Was ready to grab "any" chance that favoured me. Knowing that there are certain jobs which would not be justified if I did take the offer. One of them being definitely technical writing. Apologies if this hurts the sentiments of anyone reading this, but honestly speaking I do not fathom myself to be in the field of technical writing.

Movies, writing ad copies, public relations, travel writing and such adventurous endeavours have been my passion and longing.
Nevertheless did go for the interview on the desired date and time. The written round went on quite well. The HR lady was sweet enough to make me feel comfortable and explain in detail what I was supposed to do and what would be my role if I did get the job.

1 and a half hours later completed the paper. The lady told me to wait for a while while the result would be declared on the very same day. Waited for atleast 2 hours and that's where my mind started playing games with me.

Questions like, would you really like to do it if you got it? Would you be happy doing this? What if you are bored after a while and further disillusioned about what to do next? started to play merry go round with me. Truely, I was zapped by my own ruminations!

After 2 hours the HR lady came by and said that the written round was through and the next level would be the interview. I was confident that I would fumble. The confidence of not being able to answer my own internal
questions make matters worse. And as expected the interviewer asked me the "how's of something" and I replied the "what's and whys of everything". Result, it was nice meeting you :)

Came out of the office, a little humilated, agitated, and with an urge to punch myself and the interviewer ( let's leave the man alone, I suppose). Walked up the road with no aim at all. Things getting heavier inside the head.

Had been working on a proposal of setting up an enterprise with a couple of friends. After digesting the result called a friend and took a stock of the project. Fortunately for us, things were rolling as we wanted it to.

Would be joining the project sometime next week so that we can get things rolling and do what I want to do the most. As for the sustainance, will let you guys know as the project unfolds.

(Note: We would be having an office in Mumbai too. Hopefully I do come here for handling the same:)

An interesting phase!?...Whateva.......

Its an interesting period for me. Had been trying to continue with my post grad in broadcast journo. Somewhere and somehow things did not go the way I intended it should have. And that's made it further interesting. Some revelations, some flashes of wisdom, some sweetness in the flavour called friends while some well...not so anticipated change of hearts and guards.

As I gave up my cushioned job about 2 months back, wanting to persue my studies, never did I realise the agony of being a jobless person. Further more, I did realise the pangs of someone who is so very out of work is agonizing. Had a friend who used to be with me during the times he was scouting for the means to his bread and butter. The irritation he had written all over him, interview after interview, sometimes getting knocked of in the first round itself, sometimes going till the HR round and opportunity slipping like an eel....the wrechedness is so very understandable and empathizing by me at this point in time.

Those days, I relaxedly sitting on a couch caled job used to give him all the fundes about how to go for a job and what to say and what not to say..how to greet, make eye contact et al...the world's round..definitely proved!

But that's okay..It gives me further impetus and realization about optionizing situations. Did not very seriously think of an option what would I do if I did not....My optimism then graced me with rose colored glasses...Well all in the umbrella called experience, guess:)

That was the job thingi...Now sustainance..Spent about a month and half traveling to places for the admission thingi. Got some but did not intend to get in. Lost where I badly wanted to enter! Lots of Gandhis flowing through the hand. A month..have to get a job anyhow...Its not a comfortable feeling when one is just spending and no assests to fall back on :)

Third time... Have been watching movies at home, reading a lot (thanks to my unemployed status:), loggin on to Naukri.com again and again and again, writing some ad copies (again thanks to unemployment:), now intending to read a few hindi books to sharpen my ad-copies...:) eating on and off and yeah sleeping too:)

Fourth people.... some nice observations made, interesting enough to make me think..some have been like angels, helping me whenever and however they could and can, some been thete consoling its okay to be as I am right now ( i know its not OK:) but still the empathy is a nice thingi, some 'good friends' whiskered away, while some are just there to laugh with..they too are as jobless like yours truely...the difference..they bunk college:)

Been an interesting observation..this phase giving me enough time to separate the wheat from the shaff...

Hopefully I come out of this situation soon and bounce back with inspired energies as I enter a new place and a new office:) Yeah btw planning to leave bangalore for good and endeavor towards reaching my dreams in Mumbai:)...and Hopefully again, the next blog would be of my finding a new place, space and wisdom....
Cheers....